Celebrating Recovery

Today is Sams one year of recovery!!

A year ago today, Sam found out she was pregnant with who we all would soon know as Logan. She was given the gift of being a mother in exchange for her drinking and drug use. It's common that people need to hit a rock bottom before they decide to stop using, but I wouldn't say her getting pregnant was a rock bottom. I remember praying for her that going to jail was her rock bottom, or even moving out to live her own life. But it wasn't. I brought her to meetings, and talked to her about it, only for her to say she didn't have a problem, or that she wasn't using at all. The most painful thing for me was when she moved out, and how I had to decide to let her do her own thing, because I learned in my own recovery that you can't change someone unless they want it for themselves. Mom, Dad, and I (and I'm sure some of you) hoped that she would figure out that this wasn't right for her, and that drinking had changed her into a person full of lies, deciet, and isolation.

But, once she found out she was carrying a child, she stopped immediately. It was obviously a shock last Christmas Eve when I found out she was pregnant, but it was better than drinking. Over the past year I have seen my sister grow in to someone I can now look up to, and grow into a beautiful person, and mother. Some day Logan will know how lucky he is to have her as a Mom. She has also learned who she is as a person. Sam is now a person I call my best friend, and someone I can go to and trust with anything. I'm now not afraid to have Sam home, and I now feel safe when she is around, knowing that she won't steal from me, or bring people into our house that aren't safe people. I can't begin to describe how happy I am for Sam to have reached her one year of sobriety, and I can't wait to celebrate this day for years to come.



oh, and HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE EVE!!!!
(There, so it is sort of Christmas related haha)